Guilty

So I had a bad weekend of bingeing and some more today! I feel guilty and also lazy why? It makes little sense when i am focused my life is a bit more manageable i feel less depressed now i feel fat and a failure! Anyway i am going to try and pluck up the energy to go to the gym tonight even though righT now I am not in the mood at all!

Virgin Blogger!?!

This is a first for me! I have found my self home alone in front of my computer many time in the last 3 months (I finished my University life 3 months ago!) and just today decided to try this. It all new to me but i suppose it's better than talking to yourself.

Today I ran five km, i have an ambition to lose the last seven or eight pounds i put on at university, get my body fat to a reasonable level and have a nice toned stomach. Like every woman! I know now is my only hope of doing that again, I'm 22 and my boyfriend is the model of physical perfection, seriously he is like brad pitt in fight club. I feel bad because i am not, i'm out of shape and hold a bit too much fat around my butt and stomach. Yes i have cellulite a lot of it! So i ran five km this morning, and my calfs are screaming now but it's back to the gym tonight for a weight training session and an deadly amount of crunches!